Tumblr (3.0; @ruizah)http://ruizah.tumblr.com/<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/f41719d8e830d2f86e5a489db04cd46a/tumblr_mn7z7xYXgW1rgqi1xo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51098088996http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51098088996Wed, 22 May 2013 22:54:16 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_magfulX0Aa1qg5o5to1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://embottom.tumblr.com/post/44681110353" target="_blank">embottom</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://throughkaleidscopeeyes.tumblr.com/post/40896288028/lefloweroflife-cant-believe-this-picture-is" target="_blank">throughkaleidscopeeyes</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://lefloweroflife.tumblr.com/post/40896243020/cant-believe-this-picture-is-still-going-around" target="_blank">lefloweroflife</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>can’t believe this picture is still going around</p> </blockquote> <p><strong><em>she’s my sunflower.</em></strong></p> </blockquote> <p>Her tattoos oh my lord</p> </blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51094933779http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51094933779Wed, 22 May 2013 22:13:17 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/a2bae58d6225e5e0406628cd162978c3/tumblr_mn7pss1Knv1rknms1o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51085734027http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51085734027Wed, 22 May 2013 20:07:27 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/97d36e892ef1c5e06d5a4ecd0494a8ff/tumblr_mn7rfw0I8c1qltfzpo1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51085439677http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51085439677Wed, 22 May 2013 20:02:54 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/4fd43f71f58599a33d5b4382fe6c769e/tumblr_mn7qw8vWOG1rrmug1o1_400.png"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://suga-bug.tumblr.com/post/51084499164/one-of-the-best-moments-from-season-one" class="tumblr_blog" target="_blank">suga-bug</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>one of the best moments from season one</p></blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084956115http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084956115Wed, 22 May 2013 19:55:28 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/3b24b2cd18f7a8da441a437a63da8f09/tumblr_mn7otcIu0i1qb590so1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084917021http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084917021Wed, 22 May 2013 19:54:51 +0100<iframe width="400" height="225" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/YWJ1QByo5OQ?wmode=transparent&autohide=1&egm=0&hd=1&iv_load_policy=3&modestbranding=1&rel=0&showinfo=0&showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br/><br/><p><a href="http://cheeseandcrackwh0res.tumblr.com/post/51084436220/friendsreunite-on-ellen-kind-of-sexily" class="tumblr_blog" target="_blank">cheeseandcrackwh0res</a>:</p> <blockquote><p><strong><em>friends</em></strong>reunite on ellen. kind of. sexily.</p></blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084763801http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084763801Wed, 22 May 2013 19:52:24 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/6ece5733f705f937766e893541e2565a/tumblr_mn62loOvOv1rhhhj7o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084135668http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51084135668Wed, 22 May 2013 19:42:15 +0100<p>I&#8217;m sort of step by step trying to quit conformity. </p> <p>There are sometimes those days when my bra is so uncomfortable and I&#8217;d rather just show up to school without one. But I can&#8217;t do that, what would people <em>think? </em></p> <p>People say it doesn&#8217;t matter what other people think of you. But its so difficult, especially when I am so judgmental of others. I think I&#8217;m getting better at that though, I just can&#8217;t help myself when someone looks like a massive chav or slut. </p> <p>Like my hair, why do I care what people think of my hair. I put knots in my hair because i think dreadlocks look beautiful, not because anyone has ever told me that it looks beautiful. Sure, my hair looks like utter shit, but dreadlocks are a journey, it might take a year before they are actually mature and are recognized as dreadlocks. I stopped washing it a little while ago, because shampoo was starting to make my head very itchy and produce gross white paste. Since I&#8217;ve given up the shampoo my scalp has been in a much better condition, the only problem is when I look in the mirror and its grease and dandruff city.  I worry about what people think when they look at my hair. But why? I&#8217;m not just going to start brushing and washing my hair again, putting my scalp in a worse condition just on the off chance that I might just blend into the crowd and no one will have anything to think about me. Imagine I have fully formed beautiful dreadlocks. If someone looked at them and thought &#8216;ew&#8217; I&#8217;d laugh and not care about if they think my knots are ew, because i think dreads are beautiful. So why don&#8217;t I do that now? I could embrace my dandruff and laugh it off whenever anyone thinks its disgusting. I don&#8217;t care what you think because my skin flakes are <em>gorgeous. </em></p> <p><em><br/></em>So basically I&#8217;m trying to convince myself to be a bit more care free, and to love myself even for my imperfections. I don&#8217;t have very high self esteem, and that&#8217;s not the best state of mind to be in. Especially when I&#8217;m about to be thrown in the deep end, going to university moving away from home with no friends no family just me, alone, in Scotland. I can&#8217;t possibly do that without having any confidence. </p> <p>If anyone bothers to read this, I&#8217;m guessing you&#8217;re sitting there thinking ewwwwwwww and maybe even gagging a little at the thought of my grease head xD. Well this is my telling you that I don&#8217;t care, I like my knotty greasy flaky head and I&#8217;ll only wear a bra when I damn well please. </p> <p>I think as a culture we are very modest, and encourage low self esteem. I want to move away from that self image, because people who like themselves are happier, and are more successful in life. I think some people might look at themselves and think, I will be able to like myself as soon my acne goes, or as soon as I put makeup on, paint my nails, pluck my eyebrows, shave my legs etc. No, love your imperfections, they are beautiful and are a part of you. </p> <p>Obviously I can&#8217;t just click my fingers and suddenly I like myself. I&#8217;m going on a journey, trying to move away from conformity, and trying to convince myself that hey, you know what? I&#8217;m not all that bad. I can&#8217;t say that it has happened yet, but I&#8217;ll keep you posted.</p> <p>My god I&#8217;m such a dirty hippie. It also appears I love ranting about utter bullshit. Haha, hope you enjoyed if you sat through that. Peace x</p>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51082475557http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51082475557Wed, 22 May 2013 19:13:57 +0100Thoughts<iframe class="spotify_audio_player" src="https://embed.spotify.com/?uri=spotify%3Atrack%3A42DQ9iFZPGGeScjCDM6vyK&view=coverart" frameborder="0" allowtransparency="true" width="500" height="580"></iframe><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51076075085http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51076075085Wed, 22 May 2013 17:18:03 +0100musicspotify<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/3c58c854e9f19a849612fe2c54afca18/tumblr_mn6ujxIyef1qzvsqto1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://justbesplendid.tumblr.com/post/51056007130/sun" class="tumblr_blog" target="_blank">justbesplendid</a>:</p> <blockquote><p>sun..</p></blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51056082495http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51056082495Wed, 22 May 2013 08:11:55 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/b1eded684b4042d4e91d6793f195fbb6/tumblr_mn6ul6OZMW1rle9pto1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51056078794http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51056078794Wed, 22 May 2013 08:11:47 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9hvezRJdH1qdrtpho1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51054121288http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51054121288Wed, 22 May 2013 07:18:54 +0100<iframe width="400" height="225" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/4drucg1A6Xk?wmode=transparent&autohide=1&egm=0&hd=1&iv_load_policy=3&modestbranding=1&rel=0&showinfo=0&showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51017300011http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51017300011Tue, 21 May 2013 22:44:17 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/616b386462b83222f394015f020599ad/tumblr_mn5xq0m7A61rimgkbo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014956321http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014956321Tue, 21 May 2013 22:14:15 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/dab987aa96fe5c34bf9466db52aeb4a9/tumblr_mn5zvxnDT41s4t23io1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014908006http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014908006Tue, 21 May 2013 22:13:38 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/63e23bc8e0e8923aaadd7e549dc05b3a/tumblr_mn6211Rt3F1sqeoevo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014834430http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014834430Tue, 21 May 2013 22:12:40 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/d7d232e6b154de59113458ce0959504f/tumblr_mn61p0Mgjh1r8l3pwo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014745230http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014745230Tue, 21 May 2013 22:11:31 +0100<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/3452b5df3550e7160618063d078f6eeb/tumblr_mm96zqH0dj1qewn6qo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a href="http://himynameispau.tumblr.com/post/49562410183/mi-animal-favorito" class="tumblr_blog" target="_blank">himynameispau</a>:</p> <blockquote><p><strong>M</strong>i animal favorito <span>♥</span></p></blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014644816http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014644816Tue, 21 May 2013 22:10:13 +0100<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/2a9f7b930958829b4fd1ed16c3eea2d5/tumblr_mn1i2sf61w1s5llplo1_r1_500.gif"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/70ace324f857e47ee1d2832784de5371/tumblr_mn1i2sf61w1s5llplo2_r1_500.gif"/><br/> <br/><blockquote> <p><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jhf1vrrsn_U/" target="_blank">x</a></p> </blockquote>http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014637242http://ruizah.tumblr.com/post/51014637242Tue, 21 May 2013 22:10:07 +0100